Monday, May 22, 2017

You are gold!

Sometimes someone is born different, with a different way of seeing this world, people, life itself.
The capability of having a open mind and explore other ways than the normal to me is a treasure, it was because of people like that that many things were discovered, because of people capable of thinking out of the box.
People that are genuine, pure with so much love inside them to share, with so many options to learn and one day teach.
Those people are the change, they are and think different for a reason, making the world a better place.
What "normal" people call them? Crazy, rebels, dreamers, imatures, people that don't know nothing, freaks, abnormals.
Being different and thinking different can be a curse, being a sensitive person can be a curse, because "normal" people will judge, will criticize, will put people aside just because they don't agree with "different" people beliefs, thoughts, ideas and opinions. That's why so many "different" persons are shy, are afraid to speak, apologize for give their own opinions, they apologize for being who they are and they try so hard to change, in order to people who are ignorant accept them.
They even start to believe that they really must be crazy, maybe they are the bad ones in this fucking story. 
And that makes good, different people turn into frustrated, depressed, anxious, scared people, who are afraid of being themselves in public and use their voice to stand up for themselves.
They close their real personality into a bubble, turning into a fake person walking among the other ones, because maybe that way nobody can mess with them.
While that, their inner light weakens, they push it to the bottom until it dims, they don't dare to shine.
Do you see how wrong is this? How twisted humans can be? How can you dare to shut a beautiful soul in a cage, how can you dare to try to screw up a treasure just because you don't see the value of it?
Because you can't open your fucking mind, and take time to educate yourself, to listen to others opinions, to evolve,you are the one who was brainwashed your entire life, you're the one who don't know nothing, you are the one who lives in a giant "normal" bubble, and don't even see the pain you're causing.

Life is much more than novels, tv shows, than knowing everything about others lives and criticize them.
Life is so much more than what clothes you wear, material goods, how rich you are or not, the real treasure are in your soul, in your mind, in your eyes.

Difference isn't bad, in a mad world preaching love, be sensitive and care for others isn't bad, have a little of innocence even when you are a grown up, to see life in a different way isn't wrong at all.
So, pease, if you are "different" and others are trying to make you feel bad about it, stand up for yourself and remember you should be the norm and not the exception.

Don't let them dim your beautiful light.

To all of those beautiful, pure souls out there, you all are gold, you are treasures and I love you all. Don't think even for a moment, you're the only one and you are alone, because there are so many sparks around the world.
We are connected!
Be Happy, be kind and belive in yourself!

Friday, May 19, 2017

Seeing life through lenses

Wow, 2 posts in the same week?! The girl must really be out of her mind.
Lately I've experienced a huge lack of inspiration, plus I've been feeling so tired because of work, that like I said in my previous post, my mind has been cloudy, foggy, sleepy.
But today, that aside I really wanted to do another post, sun is shinning outside, I feeling strong and my outfit of the day was cute (in my opinion haha).
What I did? I took pictures of myself, a little amateur photo shoot.

The only rose alive in our building garden
Do I have the right or best material? No! 
Do I have the best placement? No!
Do I have the best light? No!
Do I feel supeeerrrr cute? No!
Do I want to be a model? NOOO!

So why? Because like a lot of people, I enjoy doing this, I enjoy to play with my phone camera and photography is something that I really enjoy to do, since I was very young, capture moments to see in the future, is something precious to me, mostly because of my inner fear of loosing my memorie and not be able to remember anything when I get older.
Sometimes I really like the clothes that I'm wearing and the outfit itself so I just want to take pictures of it, and other times I'm feeling good about myself, so why not cheer that fact with photos, also I like to be able to see how much my face changes along time. 
Is it just me that likes that?!
I don't want necessary be a model, I don't think it could be a right job for me, but I like doing this for fun.
Since ages I've been waiting to buy a câmera, not necessary a really expensive one, but a good price-quality relation one and a tripod, because I really enjoy this hobby and sometimes I feel a little bit restricted by my lack of material, I know I would enjoy much more with a better camera than my poor phone camera with almost no picture quality, but I do the best that I can with what I have, with the sun light and so, and I continue, because this makes me feel good, creative.

No more rambling around, there are the pictures I took today.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Chaotic mind 

Sun shines, and sun don't, mind is broken and thoughts run around and around with no rest. Confusion in the brain and focus is starting to escape.
There is no stability right now, anywhere,the roots are starting to pull off the earth and letting go the ground, mind flies away so fast, no one can reach it. I know I am where I'm suppose to be right now but still, it's been a confusing trip.
I wish I could put a string on every thought and tie them down to me.

In a moment or another I just let go the anger inside me, the tiredness, the confusion in form of tears, because words can't express all of this in one way.
Tears are like the rain, both cleanse the environment, although I'm not sad, well sometimes I am, but you now I don't feel deeply sad as I used to, I mostly feel tired and a little stuck. And that is what I don't want to, I must not get stuck anywhere in my journey, I must continue to evolve.
The anger is starting to envolve my being, because my mind is blocking out the good thoughts and there is where I start feeling stuck. That's not a good place to be in.
Life is a beautiful journey, where you learn, you feel, you grow and you evolve and nowadays I constantly forget about it, about what I learned when I cleared out my mind.

Life isn't about the things you own, life isn't about how much money you have, is about moments, feelings, experiences, appreciate what you already have.
But our minds can be tricky, they can make you feel like you need a million things to be happier, or that you not doing enought to be where you need to.
We live in a superficial world right now, where all that matters is appearance, where people don't speak their minds because they don't want to be put aside, they all look the same because if not, they are not beautiful, where they all buy the same clothes and look like clones.

Sometimes I find someone who really inspires me, or thinks like me and I feel like if I could speak to that being and express all of what think, what I feel, and have a conversation in real life it would be a beautiful way of pass time, evolve, grow, but in my life I only have one person to do that, and most of his thoughts aren't as crazy as mine. But aside him, I don't know anyone with an open mind, with crazy thoughts, with interesting theories about life.
So my mind is starting to feel tired, sleepy, foggy. And that scares the shit out of me, because I don't want to come back to that place anymore in my life.
I hope sun starts shining soon, constantly, cause this cloudy days, sunny days and cloudy ones, sometimes even rainy ones, all in the same week aren't no good.
The energy floats and changes really fast, so there is no stability, and I  feel it deeply in my mind.

Be happy, be unique, be beautiful, just be the real you!

No matter how chaotic it is,
wildflowers will still spring up
in the middle of nowhere!
-Sheryl Crow